New romantics

I want to become gay Taylor Swift when I grow up. I'd be super rich and I'd have an outlet to express my feelings and confusion.

We're all bored
We're oh so tired of everything
We wait for trains that just aren't coming
We show off our different scarlet letters
Trust me mine is better
We're so young that we're on the road to ruin
We play dumb
But we know exactly what we're doing
We cry tears
Of mascara in the bathroom
Honey life is just a classroom

Cause baby I could build a castle
Out of all the bricks they threw at me
And every day it's like battle
But every night feels just like a dream
Baby we're the new romantics
Come on, come along with me
Heart break is the national anthem
We sing it proudly
We're too busy dancing
To get knocked off our feet
Baby we're the new romantics
The best people in life are free

Forssa Pride is done for now

So, a week ago we celebrated the 5th Forssa Pride at Bar54. It was the last Forssa Pride I organized, at least for now, since I hope to be anywhere but here by next spring. The First Forssa Pride gathered about 180 party goers, the two after that about 100 a piece and the 4th about 70. So the trend has, unfortunately, been down since we started. Last week there was only 47. I'm super thankful for each and every one of the people who have showed up, but I can't be happy about the 47 people. I'm kind of sad and I feel like a fraud with my "creator and organizer of Forssa Pride" intro on twitter. I know Forssa is a small town and I know not everyone is out, wants to party, likes the location or has the free time, but I had hoped for a bigger crowd. And unfortunately a lot of my friends I had counted on didn't show. But that's life and you just gotta deal.

The good news is that I spoke with one of the owners today and we left things open for more Forssa Prides in the future. And we kind of have a program for it if it materializes. So stay tuned.

In the mean time, the closest LGBTI-parties to Forssa are in Turku, Tampere, Helsinki and Lahti. I'll see you in some of them!

Coming full circle

I feel like I may have used that title before, but who cares? I'm in the environmental field and recycling is good for the environment!

If you have been reading my blog since the beginning, or even just for a few years, you know I take my lesbian TV characters seriously, especially Calzona and Brittana. Four years ago, almost to the date, Calzona broke up on Grey's Anatomy. I was devastated as I had just gone through a break up and got attached and involved. It became important to me for them to get back together and I felt that if they would be ok, so would I.

Eventually they got back together and I felt cheated. And I've written about this before. Nothing felt like before. Calzona might have been ok, even if I didn't feel like they were, but I certainly wasn't. Well, I just watched the latest episode of Grey's and lo and behold, Calzona broke up again. Almost four years after the first time. Or the most serious time. My reaction? WTF? Didn't see that coming. But other than that? Fine. I've gained life experience, I've gained wisdom and most importantly, I know that what I see on TV does not necessarily reflect the reality, or my reality at least. And I don't need to escape into the world of TV lesbians anymore.

So why am I writing this reflective piece if I don't care anymore? Because it's my damn blog and I can if I want to!