15 minutes of fame

Since I am not one of those people who want fame no matter what I can't say I understand what's going on in the heads of all these women who have decided to come out as Tiger Woods' secret lovers. Is it just me or is it kinda stupid and self-deprecating to be known as somebody's lover? To be known as a basically a home wrecker? What's up with that? I have no desire to be known in the media or be famous for anything as I hate any kind of limelight and don't want to celebrate myself so I cannot relate to people who want to be famous and for what? For sleeping with a married man! And I'm sorry to say this but unless they are coveting to become the next playboy bunny, there really isn't any career opportunities here or any human interest stories...who cares about you you-married-men-chasing-ho? Who cares about your education, or talents or what you have to offer after you come out on a national TV/tabloid and say "hey, I was one of the MANY who hooked up with Tiger Woods"... Is he gonna leave his wife for you after you spill the beans about him? NO...get a clue people... Is this gonna make your parents say "atta girl, I raised you right!" Is your best friend gonna leave her husband alone with you after you declare publicly that you sleep with married men? NO! Is it gonna make your life better by doing this? I don't think so... I would distance myself if one of my friends did this...not necessarily the company I'd want to keep.

I have no idea how many of these stories are actually true and how many are just reaching for their 15 minutes of fame but seriously? This is the way you want to be known? Does it matter that he has a wife and 2 small kids? Does it matter that Elin's probably hurting a lot by his betrayal and is alone in a foreign country? I guess not. I'm feeling for you Elin, I really am.

Since I did not do my thanksgiving post as I was supposed to, lets do it here a few weeks later. I have now been looking for a job for almost 7 months and for the exception of just one interview have had no bites. I don't get callbacks, I don't get interviews and as you can probably imagine, my self-esteem is pretty low. It's hard to believe that things will change for the better when nothing ever does. Now matter what I do it doesn't seem to matter. I'm still home, aren't I? I think I would have gone totally mad if there wasn't for the cats keeping me company and for a partner who believes in me and our future when my faith is faltering and who is willing and able to bare the burden of supporting our household while I'm unable. I just hope I will be able to do the same soon. So T, here's to you. I love you! I don't say it enough but I love you and really appreciate all you are doing for me and for us.

When I say that I would go crazy without the cats here T always says that they don't talk back. It's true, they don't talk, they yell. The minute the door closes and Tiffany leaves for work Sox is in my face yelling at me to get up and feed them. Sometimes she gives up and lays down but more often than not it's about how long I can last listening her...I'm wrapped around her paw, I know. It's sad really... but as far as having them as company during the day, I don;t know what I would do without them. They might not talk back to me but they do keep me company. Why do you think there are so many cat ladies out there? For the rosy smell of their poop? I don't think so!

I went to see the dentist, finally, yesterday after months of toothache. I knew I had 2 big cavities and possibly more smaller ones but since I don't have an insurance nor money I had put it off...On my walks to the farmers market I saw a dentistry with a sign"walk-ins welcome" so I walked in and asked for prices. Then I made the appointment and YAY, got to know what really is going on in my mouth. I told him I knew of 2 that needed to be taken care of asap because they ache when I drink cold or hot liquids, they really hurt when I eat because the food gets into the whole and then I spend as much time fishing the food out as I did eating...So I had root canal done yesterday. Awesome. One of them was so bad that that was the only option. 400 bucks for that? Do I look like I have 400 bucks? 150 per tooth/cavity for big ones and 75 for the smaller ones. So I had 6 cavities...Before he saw the x-rays he told me that 3 are big and need to be taken care of soon...so he estimated that to be 450 bucks and 3 smaller ones 75/pop. so I was looking at little less than 700 bucks...and then to add the root canal, all together almost 1000...I need a job people!!! Or a lottery win... Donations accepted now...donations accepted now.

So I had a root canal done yesterday and then next Tuesday he will fix the other one. He gave me a prescription for antibiotics to make sure there won;t be any infections and one for painkillers. 600mg of ibuprofen...yeah, I don't really respond to ibuprofen. I don;t wanna become an addict or anything but I think at some point in the future when I am in a lot of pain I should try the hard stuff. These do absolutely nothing for me and it's awesome to realize this AFTER I have already taken 1200mg since then it becomes impossible and dangerous to try anything else. I should have remembered this when he was writing the prescription. My foot pain last year didn't respond to these mild pills either. Although for the foot I was given something supposedly stronger which did nothing for me but helps T with her cramps so I gave them to her. My pain is incurable. And my cheek/gum/tooth is throbbing. Dentist said that was to be expected which is why he gave me pain meds but I am having trouble locating the pain. I feel that it's in my tooth but he said the gum will be sore after the screws and stuff that were there. So who knows. I'll give it few days and see what happens. The local anesthesia was awesome though, I did not feel a thing. When I came home I had to drink a little OJ cuz I hadn't eaten anything for awhile and had to get my blood sugar up but it was interesting because I was numb on my upper left side and lower right side and couldn't feel my lips so I couldn't feel the juice there either. I felt like my face was twice the size. I wouldn't mind that anesthesia...

Anyway...it's monsooning here and blizzarding,or if that's not a word, snowing like crazy in the Midwest. We'll see if that comes our way later this week. It was snowing like crazy at T's moms on Saturday when we left but was just rain here in Brooklyn. Gonna be fun (or not) when it snows here and I have to go move the car on alternative parking days. I was already dreading the duty for today with the monsoon rain but then realized today is only Wednesday and I don't need to move the car till either Thursday or on Friday if I am going to grocery store then.

Off to job search I go. Later peeps!