Dear Santa

Here's my x-mas list. I've been a good girl but since we won't be celebrating x-mas this year, I doubt I'll get any of these. But if for some reason you will swing by my apartment, here are some things I would like and need.

Outside the obvious things that we won't mention I would like:

A cat or 2. It's great to have my own space and privacy but it can get lonely. A cat or 2 would make me feel just a little less lonely. I already have names picked out for them and they would receive ALL the love a cat can get. I would prefer Birman but will not kick out rag dolls either. I understand they are expensive and I wouldn't have imagined that I would pay (a lot of) money for a cat not so long ago but since the break up I've had to re-evaluate a lot of things so if you can't get me one, I understand. I will wait till I can pay for them. No worries.

I need speakers for my computer and iPods. One of those docks would be great, maybe with an alarm clock but any kind of a speaker that can make it easier for me to listen to my music whether from my computer or iPod would be appreciated. I have my iCat in the storage in Jersey and I just sold mine because I thought I wouldn't need them so now I'm kinda screwed.

A bedside lamp. My Moscow 1980 Olympics lamp is fried and caused my bedroom to smell like smoke for days so I don't think it can be used anymore. Sad because it is and was a great lamp. It would be useful is all I'm saying.

Super Mario DS or WII. For whatever reason they are the same price (expensive) and I always said when I get a job I'd like to get a DS for my commute. Well, if I get the job from across the street the commute doesn't really require a  DS but I love Super Mario...and WII would always be useful. I showed them to Arttu but I can't see him buying them for me when I can't afford to get him anything. And besides, It is not necessary.

Plane tickets to NYC to go get my stuff. How am I supposed to move on if I have to worry about my stuff and visit there?

Flat screen TV.

Dishwasher. I can't have one in this apartment because there's no room for it but I HATE doing dishes. I hate touching dishes that are under dirty water and I hate my prune hands after I've done the dishes. It's just NOT for me.

Washing machine. That I could have here and it would make my life easier than going to my parents and washing my 2 shirts there.

Patience. I used to have it. Right now with my own shit I just don't have the patience for other people's crap. I feel like I'm about to burst and not in a good way and there's nothing I can do about it. I need to be able to get over the hurt, anger and sadness and move on. To listen to other people's worries and really be able to focus on it/them.

Peace of mind. I know who I am and what I want and I used to know where I was going. I had a clear plan and path but it was derailed. And now it's all foggy. Graduation from MSU, a job, a work visa, life with Tiffany...Where I'm heading right now is a mystery and I don't like it. I used to think that as long as I have Tiffany in my life, the other things will work themselves out. Well...

I thought that was enough but...I do need Sheets, towels and other every day stuff so if you need more ideas, just ask!

Later!