Feeling guilty

Why is it that even though I have been super productive today, in kinda unproductive way, I feel guilty for hanging out in my bedroom? I have done Pride Party related things, took a walk, went to the grocery store and in general was out of the apartment for at least few hours today.

I bought cables to connect my computer to my TV few days ago so that I could watch all my shows from a slightly larger screen and lay back in bed. I've spent more time in my bedroom now than I have since the great depression of early 2011 when I laid in bed in my PJ's for days without going outside or changing watching youtube clips of lesbian couples and crying my eyes out. I guess now I associate laying in bed with a low point in my life and feel guilty doing it. I have a job that I am very good at, the 2 terrorists to keep me company and sane/insane, depending on your point of view, money to go places and do things, friends to listen to me ramble on and most importantly, a purpose. So I should be able to take it easy without feeling guilty, right? Next week is going to be so hectic, with badge-making on Monday night, public presentations in the evening on Tuesday and Thursday and 2 board meetings so I'm allowed to enjoy myself while I can.

I also feel guilty when after coming home from work I change into my PJ's. Like that implies that I won't be going outside again and especially NOT going to the gym. See, the gym is still making me feel guilty even though I haven't been for a while and didn't get my groove on with it. What's up with that? And now that I have the money and resources to go, I still don't feel like it. I'll take that 6-pack though, thank you very much, with a side of low(er) body fat. Keep the cellulite!

The reason I'm feeling guilty? I bought season 1 DVD's of Glee, Grey's anatomy and Ally McBeal today. Happy Birthday to me! You know what that means? Lounging in my bed for countless hours!