Merry Christmas!

I thought the tears were all dried already but as I'm preparing for this x-mas alone I find they're not. This is the first x-mas in 3 years that I'm not with Tiffany. And this was the x-mas that we were supposed to spend in Finland. Instead, we're broken up and I'm alone. And I can't lie, it stings more than a little that her family did not even bother to send me pictures of her nieces. I have pictures of Noah, Avery and Wyatt on my fridge...No Carly, no Adriana (Amanda said she's late which isn't surprising so Carly should be there next week). But I guess that's to be expected since I'm neither family nor a friend. And it's not like we're gonna pump into each other socially so it's easy to just ignore me. For new years I'll make a resolution to try to let it go. Why torture myself more than I absolutely have to?

So here's to a better 2011. Merry Christmas. Hope yours is better than mine.