Celebrities are so funny. I just "opened up" Iltalehti online and there was Esko Eerikäinen saying how he sees light at the end of the tunnel after a week of breaking up with Martina Aitolehti. Now I don't normally follow these people nor do I care what's going on with them but after thinking about my own break up and the things that you go through afterwards these things sometimes catch my eye. So they broke up about a week ago, maybe 2, and he's already "seeing light at the end of the tunnel". It seems to me that the celebrity relationships are accelerated in every aspect. They meet, they fall in love, they get engaged, married and have kids sooner than the normal people and because they didn't really know each other when all this happened, they get divorced/ break up sooner and faster too. The every day life isn't all glamour and when the cameras stop rolling they realize they have nothing in common. I was a sobbing mess after a week from our break up and wasn't really better after 2. I am very slowly trying to grasp the idea that Tiffany will no longer be a part of my life and getting my head around that is just taking a long time. I have good days and I have bad days still and I can't really give a time table as to when it'll stop hurting. But good for Esko for feeling better and blogging about it on a national tabloid!
I've been wondering about something. Ever since I told people about the Seta thing, everybody has said to me I'd be really good at doing it and that I'm the right person for it. I took my time thinking about it before I signed up because the article or announcement said something about outgoing personality and as far as I can see I am not outgoing. But I felt compelled to do it because I feel like I have a chance to help someone by telling my story and maybe showing that it's ok. And like I said before, I could have benefited from someone coming to our school and talking about this when I was a teenager. I am just scared shitless to speak in front of people. But I need to get outside my comfort zone and do things that are not necessarily easy but are worthwhile. But it got me wondering...am I not seeing myself or are others seeing something that I'm not? What is it that makes me "perfect" for this? Or is it just people saying that to cheer me on in something that I feel I need to do?
HAMK has a discussion group/exhibition/presentations tomorrow regarding the logistics plan for the Forssa region that I applied to work for. I am supposed to hear from them on Wednesday or Thursday whether I was chosen or not but I thought it would make a good impression if I showed up and familiarized myself with the project. I have a dentist appointment in the morning, again, and then in the afternoon I will be heading there. It's funny, every time I'm going there I have a dentist appointment first. If I do get the job I have another dentist appointment next Monday and then I'd start on Tuesday... I will keep you posted. Keep your fingers crossed!
Later!
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