Back to the future

I had a cup of coffee with a long lost friend Heidi yesterday after work. We didn't have drinks because she's preggers and about to pop any day now and I have to drive home afterwards so that just wouldn't be cool...and I will maintain my don't drink and drive policy till the day I die! I was able to not to drink and drive in USA and I'm not about to start now...anyway. It's been probably about 5 years since we last saw each other and it was great. We graduated together from Tampere so we've known each other for almost 10 years now. During our first or second year we did a presentation for a class, me, Heidi and Laura and instead of signing it with our real names we used Lil Gangsta. Lil something( can't remember what) and Ghetto Super Star. And these were posters so our "names" were there to be seen for everybody!

While we were talking she noticed an interesting point. It's interesting to me at least. I was telling her about all the people I've seen (again) since coming back and it came about that I'm kinda coming back to the future. I saw Anne who I haven't seen for about 17 years in January. We took Russian together in elementary school. Then last week I had coffee with Marika who I went to business school with in Hämeenlinna and whom I haven't seen in 12 years, and now Heidi. The level of education increases and the the years shorten as well. Now I'm working towards MSU and Candice! Because she's definitely on my shortlist of people to see in NJ when I go get my stuff. And it's funny...it'll be a full circle both school wise and as a end of my relationship. End of an era and time to move on. Forget the past for some parts and move towards the future.

Speaking of the future... I feel like a bad (Finnish) lesbian! I feel like I need a "Finnish lesbian for dummies" or "Finnish lesbian manual" on how to be one! This weekend as we were sharing our stories with the group, one guy said that when he was growing up he felt like a bad boy or a bad man, like he wasn't measuring up to what he was supposed to be or what was expected of him. I can kinda relate right now. Heidi and I were talking about maybe organizing a class reunion for our ENVI class this fall since it'll be 10 years since we started at TAMK and we were talking about some of our classmates that we haven't seen for a long time and who are not on Facebook. 2 of them we suspected of being lesbians, well one came out year before we graduated and the other we just couldn't tell. So I contacted one of my newly acquired lesbian friends from this weekend who happens to work for Seta Tampere and asked her if she knew either of them. She said no but have I tried this website? I didn't know what she was talking about... Then also on Sunday during people's stories someone told me they knew lesbians from Forssa. So I contacted her today and asked her about them. But she's also 8 or 9 years younger than me so her friends are also her age...my brothers age. Wouldn't know them just because of the age difference. And she suggested this website as well. So apart from just getting my training, this week is clearly proving to be educational and needed as I'm getting all kinds of advice that I CLEARLY need! I'm so much better equipped to be a NYC lesbian!

But that's it for now...I'm gonna go hang my head in shame.

Later!