REJECTED!

I will have a skin like a rhino by the time all is said and done. With all the rejections this past year or 2, personally and professionally I will have skin so thick nothing will penetrate it. Or so you'd think. I called FSKK today and was told, ONCE AGAIN, that I came second in the hunt for new environment and energy manager... I don't know if it's the company line and that's what they always say to people not selected but I heard through other people that I came second the last time around and then today when I was talking to my boss and told her about this she said that she has a very strong understanding and knowledge that I came second in the project coordinator job at HAMK Forssa as well. 3rd time is NOT the charm! And here I thought 3 was my lucky number...

After my SETA training in Tampere I got the itch to move there again. I truly think that Tampere is my spiritual home in Finland. And maybe all these rejections in Forssa are really a sign that I'm not supposed to stay here. That my life and purpose are somewhere else. I would love to move abroad but I think I need some job experience first. And I have tons of loans to pay. I would love to just up and leave and go to Swansea or London or Brussels but I have no job or money to do that. I was listening to Stereophonics yesterday morning on my way to work and this longing for Swansea just washed over me. I NEED to get a job so that I can afford to go back. Within the next year I will return there for a vacation. Swansea definitely IS my spiritual home. I feel like I'm half Welsh, I just love it there. I love the city, I love the people, I love the country, the scenery, the pubs, the beach...it's magical. It's peaceful. It's home.

Right now, though, I need to update my CV...have a job I need to apply for tomorrow.

Later